i want love and company, tenderness and sympathy, these are the things im longing for

AAAAAAA internet is finally working after being down for over 24 hours! Don't tell Dinah, but I think it might have been on sooner if I had realized what I needed to reconfigure on the router when I changed services. Evidently, dslextreme uses a dynamic ip setup with no login (this is what sbc yahoo used in Chula Vista). I have no idea why it would be different, but I am glad that the idea came to me, otherwise I might be waiting forever for the new service to start up when it already has.

My two closest friends Des and Dara are probably both not going to be online for a long time.
Dara said she probably won't be online for a long time. I'm glad she let me know, because I am definitely going to miss her...again. I haven't completely gotten over her disappearing for so long (heck, I still haven't completely gotten over her not showing up two years ago), but it's amazing that I am still attracted to her after all this time.
I think Des may be moving away from Michael. Apparently he wants to get back together with Cynthia, and needless to say, she doesn't want to be around for that. I hope I get a chance to talk to her so I can know whats going on. I feel so bad for her...she's such a nice person and she deserves so much better than what she has gotten so far in life. I really should pray for her more often. I wish she could meet the Lord...actually I wish the same for Dara and their mom too...they are all such sweet people.

I went into a Yahoo chat room for bi people just now cause I was having the urge to chat, and I am talking to this really boring 33 year old guy. Here is an excerpt of our exciting conversation:

eterlaan: what all havwe u done
hokusman: in the past 24 hours or what?
eterlaan: anytime
hokusman: well in the past 24 hours i went to work...
hokusman: i went with my sister to get her hair done and some weird guy sat down next to me and starting asking me things like "are you orginally male or female" in broken english
hokusman: hmm
hokusman: and i watched a lot of star trek
hokusman: saturday i went out driving with my mom, and i got us lost looking for Fry's Electronics
hokusman: im sure all this is very exciting to you
eterlaan: im mweant as far as being bi
hokusman: lol
hokusman: lol not much in that regard
hokusman: staring at jesse mccartney
...
hokusman: what do you want to do?
eterlaan: be syucked maybe fuck him
hokusman: ah
hokusman: neat
eterlaan: u
hokusman: i just like to look
hokusman: guys are cute but i have no need to have sex right now
eterlaan: i see
eterlaan: has never done anything


I could probably keep typing all night, but I think I'll stop now. I don't want Des to strain her eyes from this endless rambling whenever she reads this.